ahhhhhhhhhh FREAK OUT.
Despite not having to do maths again for a long time, my calculator has been used to work out the scores on exams I can afford to get and still make prereqs / it into my first pref course, like A BAJILLION TIMES in the past few days.
I hate not knowing how I’ve done, not even having a feeling of contentment about any of the papers I’ve done AND that even right at the end, all I’ll get is one number per subject, to make or break it. And let me tell you, that one number will not be satisfactory in telling me what went wrong, if it doesn’t end up being high enough.
What’s more, is that pretty much my entire extended family has singled me out as the only child who’ll be doing exams in the next 9 years at least, and have poured all their time and effort into telling me “good luck” by mail, phone and in person. What are they going to do if I don’t make it, if I don’t live up to their perception of me as “clever” and their reassurances of “I’m sure you haven’t left it up to luck”.
I’M SORRY IF I LET YOU DOWN!
so Mum, Dad, you thought I was calm at exam time?
